i realise that i have no use for an application like twitter, because i can't articulate myself in 140 characters. but i can't write an essay length reflection either(the only person whom i know who can do that is JY who has been spilling her guts into her journal since primary school(no offense at the spill guts thing?)). i guess it's because i'm easily distracted by the attractions of the internet. while i'm blogging, i go to facebook, download songs and whatnot, so it's no wonder that given the short allowance of my time online, i can't write a decent length post(as in more than 10 lines long). i wonder if i can get a hold of my desires(that are fulfillable). ok, now i realised i made a big mistake in updating firefox, because now i can't convert and download songs. *bangs head on table for being stupid and not thinking* ok, back to the point. here's a list of my shortcomings: dishonest, lazy, greedy(really), no self-control, tendency to giggle/cackle/laugh evilly uncontrollably and have a split personality(crazy/emo, take your pick!). so now you see why i dislike myself(and dislike everyone else). ok, maybe i'm not as bad as i perceive myself to be, but i still think i'm not a good person to be with because i will annoy you. maybe it's inherited from my father(who knows?).