I need to write about this, or I think I might explode.

So.

I don't know whether he's avoiding me, or I'm reading too deep into the situation. I always have the notion that I'm quite unlovable. Seems that it's true, and at some point in life, everyone will start ignoring me or criticising me for who I am and what I did.

I'm so emotionally unstable now that I'm crying just because he ignored me and logged off when I started talking to him.

I never used to be like this.

I should sever all ties, before it's too late, but it's like another one of my addictions. I can't quit. I can't stop staring at him in class, fantasizing about situations that I'll never be in with him, can't stop thinking if he feels anything towards me at all.

I'm so self-absorbed that I start every sentence with "I". I'm trying to change this. My insensitivity towards other's feelings is notorious, but I myself can be hurt quite easily, as I just realised.

I feel better now. I hate it when I break down emotionally like this. It's not like me to do this.

At least my recovery time is fast.

We'll just continue to spin it out for as long as we can, until I lose interest.